Just Me

When I wake up in the morning, the first thing I do is look in the mirror. As I stare through the glass at my own reflection, I begin to wonder, "Who am I?" The thought welcomes more questions to slither into mind, such as:

What is it that people see in me?

What happened to the little girl I used to be?

Why did I allow myself to fall and let the world consume me?

 I try to dismiss any more that may come, but they manage to sneak by without me realizing until I hear its familiar whisper...

Am I someone they see as me, and not understand that I might be a fake? 

Do they not see that it is a mask that covers my true identity?

 I feel as if that mask was put put on with super glue. I want to take it off, but it wont budge. I walk blind. What is different with this mask, is that it is invisible. It, unlike most masks, has no eyes for you to see where you are going. All you know is that is not of you, and was never to be part of you. However, you don't really think about this until you have already made the choice, and are paying the consequences. It is hard trying  not to fit in.

My mom tells me, "imagine yourself as a square while the earth is a circle. You can try to fit the square in the circle, but it does not fit, because it wasn't meant to. From experience, I will say that everyone should just be themselves, and not what they think they ought to be, or what the world thinks they should be. Don't make the mistake I made When I put on the mask that had blinded me from the path I was supposed to take. We were all meant to be different. In this life, each choice is a pathway that leads us one step closer to our destination. By following the world instead of our hearts, it leads us astray. We have to ignore these urges and find our way back to where we are meant to be, and continue the journey through life. We all make mistakes, and we must learn from them. I know I have, and I refuse to let the world get to me like I have before. I just Want to be myself. I'd rather someone "love me for who I am than someone love me for who I'm not."