Lady In Waiting

Beautiful
gifted
daydreamer

Wishing
on stars
like a child

Twirling
in circles
like the little girl
she used to be

Hoping
for her prince to come
and save her
from her lonely prison

Eyes
gaze beyond the world she knows
wondering
if she'll ever find true love

Time
freezes in the four walls
that surround her
flowers and butterflies
dance in her mind
sweet dreams to her they call

Once upon a time...
her tears were the cold and bitter rain
she waited for sunshine to come
hoping that her pain soon would end

                          -Shelby R.

A Desperate Prayer

Lord, I know that I sin
I ask that you forgive me
even if I make the same mistakes again
I know I am anything but perfect
I ask that you understand

I am weak in belief
I am hopless as well
with faith just as small
and feel easily in defeat

I am insecure
and uncertain
wondering if someday I will find me
the fact I am ignorant of such a thing
seems like a burden my heart certainly feels

It's a heavy and a painful bearing
one of which I can't seem to be rid of
I wait for the light to consume the darkness
so that I can find my way through this

I wonder if you're here
if you can see me through
if I can reach out to you
would you hold onto me so that I wouldn't fall?

I'm afraid to take a step
as if the ground would crumble underneath me
I fear being lost
and never being found
that if I ask for help
no one  will hear a sound

Lord, if you do exsist
hear my prayer and answer it
please guide me through this endless journey
this shattered world of pain and doubt
I need you to help me believe like I once did
to have hope, wisdom, and strength

                   -Shelby R.

Triple Forward Helix Piercing

So this is a piercing I would like to get. I first saw this piercing when my teacher showed it to me, because it was something she thought was really pretty. I would say that I have to agree.

Anyways, I don't know when, but at some point I plan to set up a time to get it done. My teacher wants to go with me to see me get it done, because she wants to know if it hurts or not(I think it's because she wants to get one done herself). I'm not sure how much it will cost, but I'll figure it out when I call the tattoo and piercing parlor to schedule it to get it done.

Well, there is nothing left to say. So...later everyone! :)

Wolf Tattoo

This is somewhat how I want a tattoo on my upper back. I'm not sure if I should get it, so I want some personal opinions.

A couple of the reasons why I want this tattoo are the following:

1.) I love wolves. They're  so beautiful, mysterious, and graceful. I can't help but to be drawn to them. Their eyes are what get me the most.

2.) Wolves are protective. Especially with their families. Sometimes they don't get along, but they somehow manage. I fell this is how I am with my family.
If you have any suggestions about it, please leave a comment. I'll be posting some other tattoo ideas later as well. Until then, Thanks for reading!

Jeffree Star

I don't listen to Jeffree Star, but I LOVE his hair and makeup. He actually has a very nice face, and I had NO idea that it was a guy until someone told me. Of course, I should have know that it was a guy by the name. However, girls do get guy names now and again.

Anyways, looking at his pictures inspire me to try things. Doing hair and makeup is so much fun for me, and I plan to go to college for it(but music is still my biggest passion). I honestly don't know how he does it. He's gorgeous! And he probably doesn't have to try much.

Well there's nothing else for me to say right now. Until my next post...Adios, amigos!

Cristmas Shopping For Khloe

Last night I went shopping with my sister, Sam, along with my brother inlaw and my grandmother, to get Christmas presants for Khloe. We bought her alot of Hello Kitty Clothes and accesories. There were probably only three things that were not. My sister, Jamie, Khloe's mom, said that she was really in to Hello Kitty and Care Bears(mostly Hello Kitty). We looked for anything that would have the color pinkle in it(what my niece calls pink and purple together). I had so much fun! I could have been there hours shopping for that kid. I really missed her.

My Niece, Khloe Marie

This is my niece, Khloe Marie. I finally got to see her last night after a couple to a few months of not seeing her. I missed and love her so much! Sometimes she's a total pain, but she can also be the sweetest little girl ever!

It's kind of sad that she's growing up. It's as if it were yesterday she was born, and now she's a three year old. I'm afraid to blink, because she might be grown up by the time I do. I'm very attached to this little girl. When She was gone, I had dreams of myself crying and trying to reach for her; and even if I touch her, it was like she also wasn't there.

Khloe was born September 3rd, 2008. I remember crying when I first saw her. My sister was a mommy, and I couldn't figure out how to respond. After the first time I held her, I wanted to be her favorite aunt. Of course, now and again, I get a little jealous if  I saw her wanting someone else instead of me. I remember that for awhile she would scream bloody murder when she saw me (it was a bit painful for me) and run the other direction. But, things got a whole lot better later on as she got older. I tell myself that it must have been a phase she went through.

Anyways, there really isn't much to say right now. Except that I LOVE MY NIECE SOOOO MUCH, AND THAT SHE'S THE CUTEST THING EVER!! I couldn't live without her! :)